Hello! (:

2010-10-29T21:52:00.002+08:00

I know its supposed to hurt, but not so much...
I wish that it is all under control, but it obviously isn't

Wayne's got a return ticket for 2. As the reasons that are keeping me grounded fade away...the question remains as to whether I would eventually accept it and get away from this life. :/ Because, the pasture on the other side is always greener.

2010-10-19T17:16:00.001+08:00

I can't put my thoughts into words properly. :/

But one thing for sure is that I was in love with you. And things are gonna stay that way for a very long time despite the things that were said and the things that were meant.

But till then. Goodbye.

2010-10-11T10:45:00.002+08:00

Promos was an emotional roller coaster. If you live with me you would know what a wreck I can be sometimes. Gosh. I must have driven my parents half insane before I myself became nuts.

Now that promos is over...I don't feel that much better afterall.

Wayne thinks that I've built the "Great Wall of China" around myself; I'm simply not letting anyone in. Sighs. I guess he is about right. :/ I don't know why people often associate me with being outspoken, loud etc. when I'm just the total opposite. I guess when you get to know me better you realized that I'm way more shy than the average kid on the block and I'm super self-conscious. Hormones. But then again, who knows me well-enough anyway given the GWC. Sometimes, people are just too bothered about themselves to start caring enough about other people. Like seriously. They think that they are all so important and everything in the lives of other people ought to revolve around them (and I'm not referring to anyone in particular).

Hypocrisy. The mention of that word is sufficient to make me fuming mad.
1. STOP BITCHING ABOUT HIM YET ACT NICE TO HIM. I'm sup tempted to record what you say about him and play it to him. Annoys me to no end. (nice try)
2. IF YOU DON'T LIKE HIM, STOP ACTING THE WAY YOU DO AROUND HIM!
3. And to a certain somebody, I feel like saying "he doesn't freaking like you". But I know in your own little world, you wish he did, cause he is the only one that would ever like you. Okay, that was a little harsh, but the truth is harsh anyway.

2010-01-25T18:34:00.006+08:00

After the uber emo 2009 post comes an uber uber emo today post

Insecurity feels like a void. The need for attention is merely a symptom. Till now there is no known cure, neither will there be. A house is nothing without its pillars, like man without his friends. Yes guys, hell yea do I miss you. Language is a barrier even when you speak it. I've changed too much for my own good. In the process of leading to the contentment of others, you often lose yourself first. You laugh but it hurts more than it should. Since when has laughter caused so much pain? You ruin yourself, hurt yourself, till you end up realising that things have taken a drastic turn. The warmth of your breath is miles away, so far that I can't feel it. Now I rely on fire, knowing that one day it might betray and consume me. They say that happiness is shortlived and sorrow often the opposite. Unfortunately, there is sorrow under happiness, does this mean that happiness never did survived? I'm a completely different person from who I was, is this a phase that would pass as time heals all wounds, or is time going to prove that this is who I am and who I am meant to be? I refused to admit that this is the kind of persoon that I have become. Reckless. Stoic. Unaffected. Dead.

2010-01-25T18:20:00.008+08:00

Year twenty oh nine

Ok I know this was due 25 days ago. But don't judge the procrastinator.

Thanks to those who shoke my 2009, namely, Andy, Wayne, Beth, Sarah, Charmaine, Natasha, Tianli, Sabrina, my math tutor (Mr Chueng) and many many more...

Andy Wayne Beth
You guys are the coolllzzz... You respected and supported my every single decision, every move I made, although I stumbled, I fell you were there for me. Andy you were the man, you made the most difficult decision and were always there right here beside me. Your songs were lovely btw. Wayne (you stole my boyfriend) but still thanks for the shoulder and the support esp after JCTs where I almost got kicked out of college. Beth my long lost bff which is no longer as long lost after all. We hit it back on right that minute. You fulfilled your bff duties, partying gossiping and all that crap. Thanks for the crap.

Sarah
You were busy and so was I. But your text messages helped me get past the day. They made me laugh. My outlet for my rant, everything is said, nothing was ever hidden. ++++ BIMBO TIME!! I love you! (:

Charmaine, Natasha, Tianli, Sabrina
You guys made my first year in TA bearable. The pressure The school stress The homework. We made it through in one piece I guess. You tahaned my crap and my nonsense and my rubbish. Esp thanks for going through drama with me... that drama. Shopping after school was love! Class Chalet was awesome. Thanks for everything people.

2009-09-18T21:44:00.001+08:00

DAMN I WISH YOU ALL THE BEST!

2009-09-18T21:43:00.002+08:00

WE are the PERFECT couple. Period

2009-09-18T21:43:00.001+08:00

I LOVE HIM. PERIOD

2009-09-18T21:42:00.001+08:00

He is an awesome ~~kisser.~~ I'm still better though

2009-09-18T21:41:00.002+08:00

ANDY is failure at guitar teaching. (or I'm a failure at learning)

2009-09-18T21:41:00.001+08:00

HE CURRENTLY OWES ME A GRAND TOTAL OF $107.50 of poker debts

2009-09-18T21:40:00.002+08:00

He smells like NOMBCHOP

2009-09-18T21:40:00.001+08:00

Andy is more taitai-ish then taitais are

2009-09-18T21:39:00.000+08:00

ANDY is awesome on the guitar and the MASTER on the Piano.

2009-09-18T21:38:00.001+08:00

Seeing Andy on buses (YES LITERALLY!) & over the radio ain't helping

2009-09-18T21:37:00.001+08:00

Looking through band pics made me realise that only Wayne and I weren't having guitars slung over our backs! Except that he was holding onto his drumsticks...

Today is ANDY day(:

2009-09-18T21:31:00.001+08:00

How long can our LDR last? As long as I don't meet another guy that steals muh heart(:

2009-07-09T07:24:00.002+08:00

"So I'll run around the condo screaming ilu and you will believe me?"
"You bet."

Love's like a drug and im a willing addict.
I've no reason to be pissed with you but you have a million and one(:

To: A
From: S

Its like a week's worth of anticipation comingcrashing down on me in a microsecond.

2009-07-06T19:01:00.002+08:00

Sometimes I really feel like asking people this. I've always been there for you. But have you?
This works for everyone except probably Andy which I totally neglect. Sorry dude.

Damn pissed. Fight with granny again. Ugh.

JCTs suck. period.

2009-06-02T16:28:00.002+08:00

Sophia's always better with a carton of chocolates and a pint of beer (kiddin' bout the beer part)

Horrid pissed mood. Maid just burnt my green jacket which smells like lovely me. BOOHOO! And this is not the first time she is burning things. Not my things for sure, but everyone's things. Granny's clothes, momo's and paps'. Maybe even Godma's. And and I swear terrapin is pissed too cause she always leaves pin's food open inviting all the ants so now pin's meal consists of red ants too.

So now I'm reduced to telling her the price of the clothes (not that I can truly remember but just estimate) I am so freaking scared she burns my levi's or smth, she is so gonna get it from me if she does. She better be careful... And and did I mention she almost lost my sports shoes? One hellofah scolding from momo there.

Ok. Anger vented. (:

2009-05-21T11:37:00.002+08:00

Thanks Andy for everything. From faking ill to getting a heli out of tekong (kidding)

Yesterday was a hellhole. Dunchaaskmewhy. Todays been pretty much alright. I HEART YA SARAH! the annoying BRUNETTE which I think GOD misfitted with the brain of a blonde. Retarded joke FTW!

I pulled out my pickguard (litterally) and am going down to bras basah in an hours time when the school decides to set us free. But have to come back by 4 for some random science competition which I am so looking forward to. (note to self: STOP SARCASM)

Bell just went off 0.1 secs ago. Ahh, freedom in 50 minutes. Till then. Restaurant City.

2009-05-20T11:48:00.002+08:00

Surrounded by Jesus Enthusiast as Martin will put in. (gosh guys. chill won't ya?)
OVERATED!

IDE is the photoshop manz. Sighs, must start getting used to photoshop and stop shortcutting using gimp which I'm all too familiar with.

Things never felt this way. Hollowness. Emptiness. Nothingness. SPACE. VACUUUUUUUUUUM. Heart-ripped-out-of-placing-death-comes-natural. No, I never did love you all that much. Its just that you've become too much a part of me that I've taken forgranted.

"Run from me. But I'll catch you when you fall" Now Andy, I'm fallling. Freefalling. And where are you? BIGFATLIAR! :( sighs...&istillloveyaso.

Clarice Choo! I need ya to cheer me up. Where are you. :(
Cornelia the RETARD! Sighs...
I NEEEEEEEEEEEEDDDDDD SSSSSSSSSOOOOOOOOOOOMMMMMMMMEEEEEEEEE HAPPINESS IN ME.

2009-04-26T20:33:00.001+08:00

Thanks guys for a lovely birthday.

Now somebody please fill this void in my heart.

2009-04-20T07:12:00.002+08:00

Sometimes its kindaof sad. If humans have to make up imaginary characters. And start believing them. To make life more meaningful. Imaginary friends. Anyone? (:

2009-04-16T07:12:00.002+08:00

TEN ARE YOU(S)
1. Are you single – Nope
2. Are you happy – Duh. it's 16th today =D ANDY!
3. Are you bored –waiting for assembly to start...
4. Are you fair –Tan
5. Are you Italian –If only...
6. Are you intelligent – more intelligent than you are(:
7. Are you honest –pretty much alright
8. Are you nice -DUH!
9. Are you Irish –JOE! I mean MEYER!
10. Are you Asian –HAHA!

TEN FACTS
1. Full Name – Sophia Seen
2. Nicknames- Popiah
3. Birth place - Singapore
4. Hair color – Dark black =( stupid sarah!
5. Natural hair style – Waves!
6. Eye colour – I think its black. But alot of people think that its brown o.o
7. Birthday – 22nd april! (mega hint)
8. Mood – Missing AnAn
9. Favorite color – Neon
10. One place you'd like to visit – UK!

TEN THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE
1. Have you ever been in love – Currently
2. Do you believe in love at first sight – Andy thinks so...but to me no.
3. Do you currently have a crush? – YESZ! JOE!
4. Have you ever been hurt emotionally –Mmhmm
5. Have you ever broken some one's heart – Not that I know of?
6. Have you ever had your heart broken –Yea.
7. Have you ever liked someone but never told them – Half.
8. Are you afraid of commitment - Sometimes I really hate it.
9. Who was the last person you hugged – Mommy?!
10. Who was the last person you said I love you to? – AnAn (he is si gonna kill me)

TEN THIS OR THAT
1. Love or lust – Love
2. Hard liquor or beer – Wine
3. Cats or dogs – Dogs
4. A few best friends or any regular friends - Depends.
5. Creamy or Crunchy – Crunchy!
6. Pencil or Pen – Pen
7. Wild night out or romantic night in - Romantic nights. Sighs,
8. Money or Happiness – Both. They are interdependent
9. Night or day – i like the cycle
10. IM or phone – Phone

TEN HAVE YOU EVER
1. Been caught sneaking out – I always ask my mama cause she is most likely to allow (:
2. Seen a polar bear – Yes.ZOO!
3. Done something you regret – LOADS!
4. Bungee jumped – haha, yea. when i was little
5. Eaten food that fell on the floor – Singapore is clean and GREEN!
6. Finished an entire jaw breaker – I CANT EVEN TAKE GREEN SKITTLES!
7. Been caught naked – YEA. OOPS
8. Wanted an ex bf/gf back – Half.
9. Cried because you lost a pet – When terrapin died =(
10. Wanted to disappear –NOW!

TEN PREFERENCES IN A PARTNER
1. Smile or eyes - Eyes
2. Light or dark hair – Blonds
3. Hugs or kisses – Kissesssss
4. Shorter or taller – Taller
5. Intelligence or attraction – both
6. Topman or Zara – LV =D Think andy.
7. Funny or serious - Both
8. Older or Younger – Older
9. Outgoing or quiet – Outgoing
10. Sweet or Bad – Haha.

TEN HAVE YOUS
1. Ever performed in front of a large crowd - Yes
2. Ever talked on the phone for longer than an hour - DUH!
3. Ever tried walking on your hands – Crazee!
4. Ever been to a rock concert – Yea yea
5. Ever been on a cheer leading team – Nope..
6. Ever been on a dance team – Yea. =D
7. Ever been on a sports team – i am the MOST unsporty person you will ever meet.
8. Ever been in a drama play/production – not really...
9. Ever owned a BMW, Mercedes Benz, Escalade, Hummer or Bentley? – All of the above =D
10. Ever been in a rap video? – Hahas

TEN... LASTS
1. Last phone call you made – Lazy to check =D
2. Last person you hugged – MUM!
3. Last person you hung out with – err...?
4. Last time you worked – I don't
5. Last person you talked to – Tianli And sab
6. Last person you IM'd - STM!
7. Last person you texted – Salah!
8. Last person(s) you went to the movies with –Smeelly corne!
9. Last person/thing you missed –ANDY! TEKONG!
10. Last website visited-Facebook =D

LOVE LOVE

2009-04-15T18:48:00.000+08:00

Personality test that I did! IT IS SO LIKE ME CAN! OMG!

Portrait of an ENFJ - Extraverted intuitive Feeling Judging
(Extraverted Feeling with Introverted Intuition)

The Giver

As an ENFJ, you're primary mode of living is focused externally, where you deal with things according to how you feel about them, or how they fit into your personal value system. Your secondary mode is internal, where you take things in primarily via your intuition.

ENFJs are people-focused individuals. They live in the world of people possibilities. More so than any other type, they have excellent people skills. They understand and care about people, and have a special talent for bringing out the best in others. ENFJ's main interest in life is giving love, support, and a good time to other people. They are focused on understanding, supporting, and encouraging others. They make things happen for people, and get their best personal satisfaction from this.

Because ENFJ's people skills are so extraordinary, they have the ability to make people do exactly what they want them to do. They get under people's skins and get the reactions that they are seeking. ENFJ's motives are usually unselfish, but ENFJs who have developed less than ideally have been known to use their power over people to manipulate them.

ENFJ's are so externally focused that it's especially important for them to spend time alone. This can be difficult for some ENFJs, because they have the tendency to be hard on themselves and turn to dark thoughts when alone. Consequently, ENFJs might avoid being alone, and fill their lives with activities involving other people. ENFJs tend to define their life's direction and priorities according to other people's needs, and may not be aware of their own needs. It's natural to their personality type that they will tend to place other people's needs above their own, but they need to stay aware of their own needs so that they don't sacrifice themselves in their drive to help others.

ENFJ's tend to be more reserved about exposing themselves than other extraverted types. Although they may have strongly-felt beliefs, they're likely to refrain from expressing them if doing so would interfere with bringing out the best in others. Because their strongest interest lies in being a catalyst of change in other people, they're likely to interact with others on their own level, in a chameleon-like manner, rather than as individuals.

Which is not to say that the ENFJ does not have opinions. ENFJs have definite values and opinions which they're able to express clearly and succinctly. These beliefs will be expressed as long as they're not too personal. ENFJ is in many ways expressive and open, but is more focused on being responsive and supportive of others. When faced with a conflict between a strongly-held value and serving another person's need, they are highly likely to value the other person's needs.

The ENFJ may feel quite lonely even when surrounded by people. This feeling of aloneness may be exacerbated by the tendency to not reveal their true selves.

People love ENFJs. They are fun to be with, and truly understand and love people. They are typically very straight-forward and honest. Usually ENFJs exude a lot of self-confidence, and have a great amount of ability to do many different things. They are generally bright, full of potential, energetic and fast-paced. They are usually good at anything which captures their interest.

ENFJs like for things to be well-organized, and will work hard at maintaining structure and resolving ambiguity. They have a tendency to be fussy, especially with their home environments.

In the work place, ENFJs do well in positions where they deal with people. They are naturals for the social committee. Their uncanny ability to understand people and say just what needs to be said to make them happy makes them naturals for counseling. They enjoy being the center of attention, and do very well in situations where they can inspire and lead others, such as teaching.

ENFJs do not like dealing with impersonal reasoning. They don't understand or appreciate its merit, and will be unhappy in situations where they're forced to deal with logic and facts without any connection to a human element. Living in the world of people possibilities, they enjoy their plans more than their achievements. They get excited about possibilities for the future, but may become easily bored and restless with the present.

ENFJs have a special gift with people, and are basically happy people when they can use that gift to help others. They get their best satisfaction from serving others. Their genuine interest in Humankind and their exceptional intuitive awareness of people makes them able to draw out even the most reserved individuals.

ENFJs have a strong need for close, intimate relationships, and will put forth a lot of effort in creating and maintaining these relationships. They're very loyal and trustworthy once involved in a relationship.

An ENFJ who has not developed their Feeling side may have difficulty making good decisions, and may rely heavily on other people in decision-making processes. If they have not developed their Intuition, they may not be able to see possibilities, and will judge things too quickly based on established value systems or social rules, without really understanding the current situation. An ENFJ who has not found their place in the world is likely to be extremely sensitive to criticism, and to have the tendency to worry excessively and feel guilty. They are also likely to be very manipulative and controling with others.

In general, ENFJs are charming, warm, gracious, creative and diverse individuals with richly developed insights into what makes other people tick. This special ability to see growth potential in others combined with a genuine drive to help people makes the ENFJ a truly valued individual. As giving and caring as the ENFJ is, they need to remember to value their own needs as well as the needs of others.

Jungian functional preference ordering:

Dominant: Extraverted Feeling
Auxiliary: Introverted Intuition
Tertiary: Extraverted Sensing
Inferior: Introverted Thinking

2009-04-14T19:18:00.002+08:00

I'm gonna let my fever burn. I think its currently at 80C already :D wanna get infected too?

School's been alright. 1 more week to b'day. Thats the only thing in my head right now. =D AND yes yes, Sophia hates guy guys. You know the big ego kind. Yes the chauvinist kindaof guys. Ugh.

2009-04-12T14:29:00.003+08:00

Brad pitt looks horrid with that facial hair of his.
Angelina jolie is getting old (flabby arms).
Perfection. Unattainable.

Thats the most I can ask of you. To be less than perfect.

2009-04-11T15:12:00.001+08:00

Its one of those days that you sit right down
And disappointment hits you like a tsunami
You start asking yourself if you've made the right choice
If ever it is gonna end
You cross your heart and lie to yourself
That its gonna.
But gonna
Is not
True.

:( Moody~!

2009-04-05T20:08:00.002+08:00

I was the one you always dreamed of
You were the one I tried to draw
Slow dancing in a burning room!

I am really annoyed. Because. I am sick of people who think that they know me, when you know what THEY DONT! I can slap you in the face right now and tell you that at 14, I would have made more decisions than you would have when you turn fifty.

And ps: dumb bimbos out there. Its more than my hair or my nails.

2009-04-05T19:58:00.002+08:00

You'll be a bitch because you can
You'll try to hit me just to hurt me

The sky's the limit
And the Eath is all that it can contain.
I make no sense :(

Yesterday was a blast.
Sarah. Craziness. Cam-whoring is the loves.
Bbq. Satay. Everything was burnt.
Joshua. Elizabeth. Lets start throwing eyeballs around.
Present. Unwrapping. Laughing to ourselves.
Poking. Screechin'. Splinter loves Sarah.
That about summarises the entire crazzyyyyyy night! (:
Make the link yourself bunnies.

I cleaned up my room and got cut by glass while rearranging the photo frame. Did i mention that I have a scratch from my left eye down my cheek? =( Clumsy Sophia.

2009-04-05T19:47:00.000+08:00

LUST ITEMS:
BLACK MAESTRO GUITAR --250
STEREO--200

2009-04-02T21:38:00.002+08:00

Like my own personal brand of heroin. I want 18th century romance. (:
Yes, you owe me that.

Ballroomdances. Corsets. Dressshoes. Goodolegentlemannerism. Candles. Horses. Fairyoldgodmother. Dukeduchessprinceprincess.

Been watching twilight over and over again. Intrigued. You've got my attention baby. I think I currently have a thing for blondes. Ya know, Andy that's why. Carlisle!

Well, I guess I've changed much much this year. LA set me thinking bout loads of stuff. Mainly the part about everyone having different sets of identity which they show to different people? Yea, that part. I was wondering, is it me or have I honestly changed or something else? Cause I feel different. Its as if when I meet my Corne and sorts, I am more open? Being more able to express myself fully. Or is it just my introverted side showing its ugly lil head at me. I honesly feel that I am far from a commuinicator much less a director. That personality quiz gave me the wrong answer. Pfft!

If you think I am what you assume me to be, then think again. Sure wrong one I tell you.

2009-04-02T17:57:00.001+08:00

My bad.

2009-04-02T07:15:00.001+08:00

Things to half look forward to :
Killing michelle
Torturuing her first actually

Saturday's the love with Sarah's birthday!

2009-04-02T07:10:00.002+08:00

Michelle is the annoying. Like honestly. And tianli just hit the 25k mark. o.o

=.=

NOMNOMNOM :D:D:D:D

This is so fun. Like seriously, fun :D

Okay this is retarded.

=)

2009-04-01T19:41:00.003+08:00

Guys, before you continue reading, please catch this first
http://this-propaganda.blogspot.com/2008/07/i-put-my-pen-down.html

I REGRETTED OKAY?! BUT ITS ALL TOO LATE... WHAT IS THERE LEFT TO SAY?

2009-03-31T22:46:00.002+08:00

Its raining
Its pouring
And we're lolling

What a way to spell things out.

2009-03-31T21:19:00.002+08:00

Because being with you girls I really felt free. Liberated. I can be myself and not feel judged. Because I know that you would be laughing with me and not at me.

2009-03-30T09:45:00.002+08:00

Sophia is being the really guai kia and doing her exercises. Take that Martin! Anyway, been feeling hell load fat these days. Work those fats! LOLS!

Did I mention that I feel horrid today? Alright, BAD FLU + SORE THROAT+ BLOCKED EARS (?) yea, thats pretty much whats been going on.

Andy was out since thurs but didn't spend time with him cause firstly, he was badly hung over and secondly, I was damn sick. Spoke to him for quite a fair bit on the phone though.

I MISS YOU PEEPS! like loads!

Because sometimes you step back and ask yourself. What are you doing with you life. And if you can't get an answer, then its time you get your butt out there and do something.

2009-03-26T07:12:00.002+08:00

Sophia officially hates it when she has to put plastic into her eyes cause they are damn drying. UGH.

Thinking bout getting another maestro guitar. Would be going with Sarah on like the 9th. She is one busy bee...I mean pig. Been missing AHS loads lately. Maybe its due to the fact that I dont get much stuff that are being taught in TJC? Physics is the "what are you saying?" Gives dugong look. Stuff been pretty difficult too without ANDY. Didn't realise his importance till now. ALirght...

2009-03-23T17:48:00.002+08:00

BECAUSE IN AHS I FOUND MYSELF AGAIN. Alright, went backed to ahs today. TEN is the loves though many things have changed. Sighs. That includes people. I totally owned Cornelia in table soccer. the score is like 5-100 or somthing. Lousy corne. XD

I tried forgiving you. I really did. But I guess its that we ain't fated. No matter how much I tried. No matter how much I wanted things to work out. I am sorry girl. I can't say that I have totally forgived you. But I can say, I am trying.

2009-03-23T06:57:00.003+08:00

2G is gonna have a class outing. *hears people cheering like crazy mohawks*

Anyway here's the details guys 2pm 4th april Bedok interchange babes. And we are going to Sentosa. Love.

Its the 1st day of school of the new term. Thats kinda sad. Considering some factors. sighs

2009-03-22T17:10:00.000+08:00

CARLISLE!

English: habitational name from the Cumbrian city of Carlisle, in whose name Celtic cair ‘fort’ has been compounded with the Romano-British name of the settlement, Luguvalium.

text me guys, tell me what you think of the name. =D

2009-03-22T16:57:00.002+08:00

"Because if I fell for you, would you catch me?"
Now I know the answer.

Random Andy quotes have been popping into my lil head. Yes, boy is out of town. For another 2months 2 weeks 3 days. Pulau Tekong. Yes, thats how far my heart actually is.

Alright, things have been kicking off in TA. Though I feel as if mind has decided to eternally stop in 2G where I had the best damn people ever around me. So head please start moving on and get smacked by the cold concrete cement block of reality. Stuff has been pretty hard. I am really MOVING OUT of my comfort zone. Way too out maybe? Alls not-so-well.

I dreamt of an angel face. Of a man I never thought I once knew. Carlisle, I think it was you.
Poetic notion yea?

Yes, the baby is a boy, doctors comfirmed it. I want him to be named Carlisle. Maybe cause I want him to look like the angel I dreamt of? Random dreams these days. Plus, Carlisle seems like a pretty cool name to have. Shall do a baby name search on it in a second. Hang on...

2009-03-19T12:15:00.002+08:00

If you freaking think that you are so popular then please go wham your head against the wall as you need some waking up to do.

Sophia is HIGHLY annoyed.

I NEED ANDY SALAH 2G AND EVERYONE THAT EVER MATTERED!

I miss chilling out on the beach with 2G during BBQ. Sparkles. Marshmallow. Camwhoring. Emoing. Everything on this earth.

And if you don't even know me well at all please shut your mouth up.

2009-03-09T16:26:00.002+08:00

OMG! SABRINA JUST LEFT AND WE FORGOT TO PASS HER THE LETTER. THE ZIRUI LETTER! NOW CHARMAINE HAS TO PAINT 2.

OK, THE REASON THAT I AM TYPING IN CAPS IS THAT I JUST FOUND OUT THAT HE USED TO DATE DAWN. LIKE OMG. I KNOW SHE IS A SPG BUT STILL! *JEALOUS* OK NOT SO MUCH BUT STILL. HE HAS SIX PACKS. I WOULD JIO HIM IF HE WAS 15 YEARS YOUNGER. <3 MAYBE HE WAS CUTER THEN...HM...

AND PICK COUNT FOR THE DAY ( YES, I WENT GUITAR ACC SHOPPING TODAY. YES, WITHOUT YOU ANDY): I BOUGHT 1, SABRINA BOUGHT 4 AND TIANLI BOUGHT 9. WE ARE TOTALLY CONTRIBUTING TO THE ECONOMY. GO TIANLI!

thinkingbouttheangmohIsawatthemrttoday.

2009-03-05T07:47:00.002+08:00

Thanks An-De for everything, ranging from Sandy to Ralph lauren being better than lacoste. Those conversations were the funniest thing ever surviving. I really miss you. :( And yes, its yellow not blond. =DD I <3 my brunette

2009-02-05T07:11:00.002+08:00

I miss those days where our conversations were light and careree.
Well, like cotton candy.

Oh shitty crap, now I'm craving for cotton candy. AHH!! What's up with my sudden cravings these days.

Gotta rush home after school to change and and rush down to Orchard then Plaza Sing then down to Suntec City. AUNTY AUDREY WHY DID YOU FREAKING APPROVE TJ TO DO MASS DANCE IN SUNTEC!! Its gonna be so damn embarrassing.

Currently using my tiny brain to think of why those angmohs would want to come to SEA. I seriously think that its gold. =DD

2009-02-04T20:34:00.002+08:00

"Your facebook is dead"
"Oh yea, look who's talkin'"
"Me. "
"Then there's too bad cause IS active."
"Mmmm...If only things were this way again"
"Oh andy. *sighs*"

I am living life in a total daze like really really dazed. Its 1 month into TA and I havn't fully accepted that fact yet. I must really start getting these crappy things out of my tiny brain cause it is taking up RAM. Tablets are the heaviest things to take to school this days.

And And I wonderfully scratched the cornea of my left eye while trying to take out my lenses. Boo!

The guys are all going in to NS I guess. ANDY 6packs. =D

2009-02-02T09:47:00.000+08:00

I am effing pissed right now. Boohoo
And and if you are going to be an idiot and ask me if effing occured, i am so going to kick your...(you get the point).

2009-02-01T00:28:00.002+08:00

Well, since someone complained that my blog is "oozing with emoness" I shall blog a happy post.

Life rocks with a furry thing in your arms while you doze off to sleep. That's pretty happy ain't it (unemo)

School's cool. New classmates and such. But its gotta take a while before the class gets bonded.

I decided to revive my facebook which was by now decaying. Facebook is actually quite nice, come to think about it. Yipee!

I will definetely miss walking down those streets of orchard road everyday. It practically feels like routine. Its like as if I lose myself in the crowd and just forget all my worries. Mmmm...

Andy's crazy antics never fail to amuse me. Laughs.

2009-01-27T01:00:00.000+08:00

My blog is about as dead as my Facebook (which I finally decided to update) Yes, 3 minutes hotness. (direct translation).

I am in love. In love with the dog that peed in my room. In love with those pretty innocent eyes. ILU PUFFY! <33

2009-01-26T20:27:00.002+08:00

IDK bout you. But spending CNY feeling empty ain't a very good thing.

Trying to preoccupy myself with trivial things and stop thinking about the rest. Its made me a tad happier, I guess.

2009-01-19T21:13:00.002+08:00

Maybe things didn't have to be this way.
Lesson learnt. The hard way.
Well, what's done is done.
And we're moving forward from where we left off.
Left me thinking...

2009-01-15T18:15:00.002+08:00

OMG! I got an INTERNSHIP. YAY! Dr Martin kindaof said that it was alright if i wanted to do an internship at his clinic. (: *you better write me a good testimonial* LOLS. So he was like asking me how much I wanted to be paid/ what outside would be paying me. Then I was like 5bucks. Then he was like ok. SHOULD HAVE ASKED FOR LIKE WHAT...100bucks a day. =DD All's well, it all boils down to a good resume.

ANDY HOW CAN YOU DO THIS TO ME! I AM SO GOING TO TEAR YOU INTO 500pieces.

2009-01-06T19:20:00.003+08:00

BLACK nail polish & a PINK pick.
- with love from your wonderful girlfriend.

BROWN contacts & FALSE lashes.
- with love from your wonderful boyfriend.

LOLS. Christmas teasing. =D

2009-01-06T19:17:00.002+08:00

What if the person you thought you knew, you never knew.
What if he had a darker past?
What if there's nothing really wrong with it.
What if there was something wrong with it.
What if you totally lost your respect for the party in question?

OH screw him. >(

2008-12-26T11:17:00.000+08:00

will blog about christmas tomorrow (tomorrow tomorrow tomorrow tomorrow tomorrow tomorrow tomorrow tomorrow tomorrow tomorrow)

2008-12-20T23:01:00.002+08:00

Currently waiting for Jasper to send over the stuff to me.

Love is what gives you headaches and heartaches after its been over.

PS: I AM NOT THE ONLY PERSON IN LOVE. (IN A SENSE)

2008-12-18T19:53:00.003+08:00

Reading those pages
Reopening those wounds
Well, they were never exactly closed anyway
But it still hurts, bad
This emptiness is killing me
Robbing me of things that I thought I once knew
This uncertainty doesn't feel too good afterall
Does it?
Because being with you never left me feeling this way
But being without you did.

cliche.

2008-12-14T10:27:00.002+08:00

This blog is freaking dead. I know sorry.
These days has been like spent going out with Sarah and spending time with Andy on those stupid swimming benches and going to the the Clinic.

I have Sean's pictures from last nights party but I guess I am just too lazy to upload.
And last night's party left me feeling too tired to actually go to church.

"Life is but a spectacle"
&shityouforknowinghowtomanipulatepeoplesowell.

2008-12-02T20:25:00.001+08:00

You swept me off my feet once again. Is there anything more to say?

2008-11-30T19:27:00.002+08:00

Class bbq was alright with my feet fully blistered that is. Got very few pics though.

Andy is coming back at midnight tomorrow. And he is (apparently) well-tanned and has done loads of clubbing in Aussie and also went shopping with his mates. *jealous*

2008-11-27T20:00:00.003+08:00

PROM PICTURES!!!

Pretty doorgift! They are actually water babies.

Sec 4 council dance!

Event Banner

Tables Tables and More Tables. On screen is actually the Sec 4 pictures.

With Danielle!

With Eunice (WHY DIDN'T SHE NEED TO WEAR A DRESS!)

IN SEARCH OF BEST DRESSED MALE/FEMALE & MOST GLAMOROUS/ CHARMING. Ihadloadsmorepicturesthenthisbutlazytoupload.

Jiajie!

Joel!

Raynor!

Pei Qi! (MOST GLAMOROUS)

Ben!

Kenneth! (Most Charming)

2008-11-27T18:58:00.001+08:00

Prom photos coming up!

2008-11-24T19:24:00.000+08:00

Teach me how to feign happiness when I am far from it.

2008-11-24T18:07:00.001+08:00

EDITING photos!

2008-11-23T11:20:00.002+08:00

Day one without you was terrible with my handphone feeling cold as the steel that it was with the absence of your heart(phone) warming messages. Didn't think that it would affect me this much.

Yesterday was fun! Thanks Sarah for everything! Love your face while you unwrapped the newspapermagazine covered Xmas present. Had a lovely Henna done on my hand which lead to doctor Martin go WTH! and skipping all the exercises. Had dinner at Aunt Aud's place for a family gathering and playing Wii with ReginaAbelDadGlendon and me going hysterical. Not to mention that I was running a fever all the while and absent-mindedly left my handphone at home.

I grabbed Grandmom's phone to prank people whose number I could remember. And LIZ immediately knew that it was me by the first message she received, thanks!

2008-11-19T20:08:00.001+08:00

Guitar lessons is the world. Can't wait for Saturday!

2008-11-16T21:34:00.003+08:00

Time flies doesn't it? Christmas shopping is about to start I guess. The word shopping causes an adrenaline rush all over.

Tomorrow's Monday again. The beginning of yet another tedious week. Busy. Nothing much to look forward to this week I guess. Except for being terribly tortured by Dr. Martin. Why does this week feel like such a drag. CLARICE CHOO! YOU FREE ON FRIDAY? LET'S GO ~~SWIMMING~~ shopping.

Andy dude happy 6th. And you are flying of to Aussie soon.

2008-11-15T10:10:00.002+08:00

Tags replied
Divya: Hey Girl! How are you?
Marilyn: When you free? You like everyday also busy sia
Vanessa: You ask Marilyn first. LOLS.
Dee: Have fun there!
Clarice: Thanks for the present. LOVES.
Annabella: But these days I no time. =( But must go down for interview.
Yu Hang: You are?
Jasper: Thanks. LOLS. You going NS soon?

2008-11-15T09:46:00.003+08:00

Sarah owes me a digital cam!

Went out with Clarice yesterday. Thanks for the present. I finally finished Penelope after like a 7 months drag. Rollerblading was fun except for the fact that my instructor was being really mean to me. (read that Clarice)

2008-11-13T19:06:00.003+08:00

Christmas wishlist! This is my 2nd one? All's well. But now there are way fewer things in it cause some things have been fulfilled: - laptop skin - DIGITAL CAM

2008-11-12T19:42:00.002+08:00

ANDY!
you teaching me guitar and ending up giving up and me convincing you to play me a song which then continues with another song after I promised that I would learn seriously after that song but this cycle continues till its time for me to go home and you pinching my nose as I half-laughed at you for being so gullible
I MISS YOU! examspleasebeoversoon!

2008-11-12T19:33:00.004+08:00

You look but not see
You hear but not listen
You touch but not feel
You eat but not taste
You breath but not smell
Enjoy the simplicity of life; seelistenfeeltastesmell

2008-11-12T19:33:00.001+08:00

ITS one of those days you got freaking pissed by your father who is freaking unreasonable and freaking hell load of a fish head curry. THANKS Sarah for an amazing Monday, Tuesday and 1 hour of a Wednesday. Thanks once again for inviting me over on Monday for prayer group. Muscle Aches from head to toe. Thanks Dr. Martin

2008-11-07T10:24:00.002+08:00

TAGS replied!
Sarah: LOLS. Male bitch = hitch? WHAT LOGIC?
Marilyn: I don't mind really to take your properties and such. Hand me the handphone.
Vanessa: Lets make Marilyn BROKE.
Annabella: I should not have mentioned your name in the first place AND I HAVE NO HOLIDAY HOMEWORK!
Cornelia: I KNOW WHAT TO GIVE YOU FOR XMAS. A SEED THAT GROWS BRAIN! Ain't I smart?
Vanessa: LOLS
Clarice: LOLS. Friday aye?
Dee: It's not your fault, seriously. Take care too. AND WHAT ARE YOU DOING ON THE COMPUTER?
Clarice: HAHA.
Annabella: But its only 5 bucks/ hour only. =(

2008-11-07T10:22:00.002+08:00

BECAUSE you left me in a total dilemma.

ANDY jiayou! Everything's possible if you jut believe yea? (super cliche I know) 2weeks more. Hang in there.

2008-11-06T14:52:00.000+08:00

"What is it about doctors that is so irresistible? The ability to heal? The degree and papers? The selfless service of others? In any case, I've totally been there..."
-Somebody(that I am not supposed to reveal)

HAHA.

2008-11-06T11:39:00.001+08:00

Hey Dr. Martin, get well soon! (and stop torturing me)

2008-11-05T17:21:00.001+08:00

Crap ole' crap.
I think I am cerarfafareruraersrdafdhrhsireerndrsdg rtraeroqrefhan aremty aoueydoanlkrjcjlkjtmdlakojkjklr. Yes, I know it is unreadable but the message is in there except it is just jumbled up with other words.

2008-11-03T21:36:00.000+08:00

check out the boxed up area (click image to enlarge)

2008-11-03T19:29:00.002+08:00

Well, I have gotten a new chiropractor. Anyway, his name is Dr. Martin John and he is British but most importantly he is rather cute (even my grandmother thinks so) and and apparently he is not married and and and I would be seeing him 4 times a week, namely Monday Tuesday Thursday Saturday. And and and and and he said that he would not be going easy on me. Thanks Dr. Martin. But all in all he is this really really friendly guy that is 180cm tall.

2008-11-01T18:11:00.002+08:00

Because she fell in love with him all over again.

2008-10-30T21:14:00.001+08:00

Cornelia I miss you. Eunice I miss you. Sarah I miss you. Zhiyi I MISS YOU. ANNABELLA I MISS YOU. I MISS CLASS 2G! SOMEBODY!!!!

2008-10-30T17:54:00.003+08:00

GUITAR classes rocked! &iamcountrysick (according to Sarah)

Worked at nessa's mum's nursery. The kids were CUTE! I swear you can forgive them for whatever they did when you look into those innocent-looking eyes. But they are terrible, I don't remember being that naughty. The food was fab though. All's well.

2008-10-29T10:33:00.002+08:00

REPLY to tags

Cornelia: I MISS YOU =(
Clarice: When you free text me?
Sarah: Guitar was FUN!
Huizhen: Hello!
Zhilin: Ok.
Olivia: Hi double blue shit XD
Dee: Sorry super late. Happy 4th too babe.
Sarah: Sorry. Lazy update. Haha.
Vanessa: EVIL!
Renee: Thanks girl!
Marilyn: What date?
Annabella: I go pick with you one day!
Sarah: HELLO!
Annabella: Nope. It was an xmas present from my aunt cause she saw that I really liked it. I go buy bag with you one of these days?

2008-10-28T22:41:00.003+08:00

Was on the phone with Dee after hanging up on Marilyn and Vanessa. Consulting him with regards to an antidote for mixed emotions. Sometimes I get this feelings which I choose to deny and hastily hide beneath my cover, while other times it has proven to me that this feelings were apparent and forthcoming. Well, I guess sometimes it takes more than logic/reasoning/theory to solve one's innermost thoughts and emotions, so until then I am struggling to stay afloat while trying to find this answer.
this emptiness is killing me faster than a sword can.
Goodnight world!

2008-10-28T20:19:00.007+08:00

BANGKOK!
Captions:
1. Thai Airport
2. Lovely hotel room
3. Me trying on weird glasses
4. Ambience @ Leelawadee
5. Waiters @ Leelawadee
6. Deciding on what to eat @ Leelawadee
7. ITS winter!
8. Glendon with MASKS
9. Interior of van on saturday
10. Downstairs of the hotel
11. Collecting our luggage at the airport

Things I bought:
5 shirts
1 pair of Levi's
1 Adidas bag
1 Kappa sports shoes
1 Kappa Jacket
1 Watch
1 Clock
Pairs of earrings
Sets of key chains
4 bottles of nail polish
2 bottles of lip gloss
Thai fragrance pouches
Some anti-blister thing for my shoes
3 Cashmere shawls
1 Belt
1 Big storage bag for random things

2008-10-28T17:18:00.000+08:00

DEAD depressed.

2008-10-14T17:59:00.002+08:00

Car Lift! Photos take in/outside of lift
Wondering how it works? You just drive into the lift then the lift will bring the car to the respective level.

2008-10-14T17:52:00.002+08:00

BEWARE! Long post ahead!

Saturday & Sunday was fun in the Sun with cousins. Well, we have all finished our exams and its time to partaye. Saturday was mahjong session at Aunt Aud's place and me fighting with Glendon over the remote. Sunday was Church. Sean was like showing me all the different alcoholic drinks and I was in a daze. Ice wine, red wine, champagne, white wine, barcadni, rin, vodka and whats not. Followed by collection of Air TICKETS! *flashes broad wide smile*

Monday was crapping with Sarah and Valerie as school was boring. Mini Olympics. After that, went shopping for guitar at peninsular and bugis. Bought a Maestro at 180 in the end, solid wood top and such. I LOVE YOU vanessa baby. Baking on wednesday!

Today was yet another crapping day. Went Gym with Annabella after school. But we weren't really in the mood so we left early and decided to loook for Annabella's dress for her cousin's wedding.

DRAINED both emotionally and physically.

2008-10-10T21:36:00.003+08:00

PICTURES!

2008-09-29T21:33:00.001+08:00

I've got questions. I need answers.

2008-09-26T18:14:00.002+08:00

Phone chats with Andy is the loves! especially when you are hald dead on your bed looking through the ikea magazine.

Andy: whats on your christmas wishlist?
Me: *names a whole long list of things*
Andy: so which one do you want me to get you?
Me: All. (:
Andy: -.-

The only person that can brighten up a terrible day.

Things to look forward to during holidays:
GUITAR lessons with SARAH!
IKEA shopping with ANNABELLA!
GYM with ANNABELLA!
SHOPPING date with my lovely MARILYN and VANESSA!
OUT with JANICE!
NEW laptop!
COUNCIL camps!
WISHLIST from ANDY!
ROLLERBLADING lessons with CLARICE!
and many more...
this would be a great holiday. YAY!

2008-09-25T20:31:00.002+08:00

SUGAR RUSH with Cornelia is equals to a crazyyyy second reccess! AUSTON made me cry. Kidding.

Life's been pretty good to me these days. I guess. If i choose to omit those parts of which I was quite pissed and all.

Sarah this is a warning to you. You better return me my brain of which you have stolen from me when it dropped out on monday!!! AHHH!!

All these are just a plain facade.

2008-09-17T21:54:00.002+08:00

Your voice cracked as you heard those words
Staring blankly into space
You gave me a model answer
Tring to play it cool
I know you're not fine
And I am really sorry about it
Thanks for the text
I really appreciated it
Till then, I would see you again (:

Cliche!

2008-09-17T20:36:00.003+08:00

I look at you with disgust in my eyes
What fills me is disappointment
For who you have actually become
And who you have turned out to be

Studying with Annabella while munching on cheese+fries( not cheese fries) and finishing a medium and large coke simultaneously. Both fattening and far from enriching.

Pe was great today. Did the chanbara thing with Sarah and we both ended up laughing our heads off. My tummy hurts! Sarah says that I look different with the helmet on and such. So we were practically just whacking and whacking each other while laughing hard. FUN. Took out my helmet and was drenched in prespiration.

Chinese was pretty cool. Was talking to Gary Vanessa and Zhiyi about something which I forgot. But all I know that it was really funny cause I remembered laughing. STM. Hmm... better go ask Gary before I turn old.

2008-09-17T20:35:00.000+08:00

End.

Hello! (:

Today is ANDY day(:

Portrait of an ENFJ - Extraverted intuitive Feeling Judging(Extraverted Feeling with Introverted Intuition)

The Giver

Portrait of an ENFJ - Extraverted intuitive Feeling Judging
(Extraverted Feeling with Introverted Intuition)